If you’re deluded that it was love that kept you going, no it wasn’t!
Let me enlighten you!
Contrary to popular belief, I have always understood love as just another emotion, in-fact in my head rage is stronger than love. People push their limits harder in rage than in love, don’t trust me? Go back into your life and reiterate.
Love is given so much weightage because it carries many more essential, far-significant, and nerve-wracking chemical reactions in your head. And that’s that. It acts as an escape, a reason to vent, a permanent shoulder to cry on, self-consuming and nasty make outs, opening up without the fear of being judged, and a long list of other perks. So honestly, no love keeps you going, it’s the transactional benefits that keep you going.
A part of me was glad, I haven’t had a transactional, self-benefiting experience. However, I’ve had a loud and clear – Oh God, I want you! – kind of experience. And I wouldn’t trade that for something as small as love.
Personally, if I’m in a narrative, it would open with,
“If you still have a space permanently in my head, it’s not because there was love. It is because your actions enraged me and so did mine. Because I touched the dragon and made love with its spitting fire while it burned my nights and days for senseless hours, till our bodies turned into a fragrant carcass. I fought, screamed, and scratched the mental peace out of you, and so did you. I had found content metaphorically, literally, and rhetorically.”
So, honestly quit it, you can’t convince me and neither can I. Not on love is bigger than want for you and want is bigger than love for me. We do more things out of want than we do out of love. A raging desperate want, in my head is a purer emotion, far stronger than love.
You live through sunsets and I through sunrises. We are different, in ways hard to comprehend. So, for us to co-exist in one moment, together, even for a few seconds, it would take the sun, the moon, the stars, and the universe itself to align. Or maybe, just take a tans-Atlantic flight, the dawn and dusk co-exist beautifully (I say it with personal experience), and a for a few minutes you’ll know what I mean.
If you don’t make me angry, you don’t matter. Easy!
Be A Paradox 
A different perspective so eloquently explained
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Thank you 🙂
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I think with time spent in love the definition and meaning kept on changing,, some come out as haters ,ragers and some come out as enlightened,,, it depends how we handle every emotional setback we are put us in,, what I feel is love is not with a personal presence but with emotions feelings and affection which attracts our heart to fully devote itself to it,,
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Emotions are one to its own. In my head, if love was enlightening, it would be non expectant, when it is expectant of something, even the smallest of things, it is transactional. Why weigh it so heavy, when it was supposed to set you free, by the textbook definition of it. However, humans have a tendency of being deferring to facts because it doesn’t satisfy their mental routine of moral pretense. I like logical reasoning supported with facts, especially more when I have a personal experience of them. But then again, one to its own.
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That’s why I said , we say what we personally feel,, it can be both ways, all depends on our own personal emotional turnout to which side,,,
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And that’s why I said, one to it’s own.
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👍🏻🙏🏻💐
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☮️
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Wow, what depth?! 💘
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Thank you 😊
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Felt as if you conversing with self through this piece.
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